Yesterday’s Sadness, Today’s Strength

Photo Credit: Danielle Moler, Flickr
Photo Credit: Danielle Moler, Flickr

Today was a struggle. I had a massive breakdown last night because I was told some devastating news. This morning I woke up and I felt depressed and unmotivated. I was laying on the lounge for a solid hour and a half and I planned on wasting my entire day, when really I should’ve been doing assignments and going to the gym.

I failed to eat breakfast and didn’t leave my pyjama’s. My usual daily routine was already going wrong. I turned into a negative and unmotivated couch potato. I was happy curling into a ball and ignoring the world (as unhealthy as it sounds) that’s how I felt.

A good friend of mine reminded me that no matter what happens in life you just need to keep moving forward. He was right. I struggled to get off the lounge and it took me a long time to get ready, but I did it. You’re only as weak as you believe and today I proved to myself that I am stronger than my negative feelings.

We all deal with problems and sadness differently, and the way I deal with things is blocking out the world and forcing depressing music into my head- it enhances the sadness … again it’s not healthy but it works for me. Sadly, I also push everyone who’s close to me away, but the people who really care force themselves back into my life whether I like it or not.

I’m starting to learn the life lesson of support. I’m allowing people to help me when I need of it and I’m reaching out for help too, which is a big step.

I don’t feel much better, but I accomplished a leg day session at the gym and walked out proud. You are capable of anything if you put your mind into it.

Photo Credit: Pedro Ribeiro Simões, Flickr
Photo Credit: Pedro Ribeiro Simões, Flickr

8 thoughts on “Yesterday’s Sadness, Today’s Strength

  1. I deal with this a lot unfortunately. I have talked to my close friends about it and asked them not to allow me to distance myself and I’m really happy they’re pushing me out of my “safety bubble”. It’s really hard to deal with it when you understand what you’re doing to yourself but can’t find the power to help yourself >.<

    -Deww
    pandacookieoutofthebox.wordpress.com

    1. Sometimes distance is what we need. It gives us time to work out the situation. It’s always good to have friends around you, because it’s a comforting knowing they care. We all grieve in our own ways, but I relate to that’safety bubble’. Try and step out of your comfort zone :) Take care. Thanks for reading

      1. True, but a little bit different for me. Sometimes needing distance is different than the safety bubble. Distance could help you sort out everything in your head so you’re ready face them, but the safety bubble is when you avoid thinking and cut out the world from your head and the bubble just keeps expanding which isnt healthy :/
        You’re welcome, I hope everything is better now for you ~

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